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Wednesday, May 19, 2010


So Saturday was my birthday and I was really happy. I got to spend time with friends and family and got presents and it was just my day. Just how a birthday should typically be. But Monday I found out that I had received a poor grade in my Accounting class. My mood went from happiness and excitement to grumpiness and upset. I started to think, why is it that we can go from being ecstatic about something to being depressed almost instantly? Why are we so unstable emotionally? Even the most carefree people in the world do it, so why is it that we seem to be born to have such a sliding scale of happiness? In my frustration I opened my Bible to a random passage to seek some guidance. What I stumbled upon was Psalm 20.

"May the LORD answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you. 2 May he send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion. 3 May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings. "Selah" 4 May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. 5 We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the LORD grant all your requests. 6 Now I know that the LORD saves his anointed; he answers him from his holy heaven with the saving power of his right hand. 7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God. 8 They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm. 9 O LORD, save the king! Answer us when we call!"

May the Lord answer you when you are in distress and may he send you help from the sanctuary! That is incredible! So I took that and applied it to my situation, and to me it means that if we were happy all of the time, we wouldn't really need God. Well, better yet, we wouldn't appreciate Him. I think sometimes we need failure to push us toward success. We need to be scared into thinking oh no I can't screw this up. We all get to a point in our lives where we need a bit more motivation than we can give ourselves. That is when we turn to God. He gives us life and death, success and failure, air and water, and most of all love. And in the end, God is all we will ever need. He turns our failures into success!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

A Mother's Love

Today is Mother's Day and I was just thinking about what would I do without my mom? Your mom is the one who takes care of you when you are sick, and picks you up from school, and makes you meals, and gave up years of her life to look after you. She loves you whether you are a bum, or fail out of school, or even if you act like you don't love her. A mom loves you no matter what and would give the world for you to do well. She is the one that yells at you when you mess up, she makes you clean your room, she hounds you about your grades, she grounds you for talking back, she won't get out of your personal life, and she won't stop caring. She see's herself in you and wants you to live an amazing life, so that's why she is on your back all the time, she doesn't want you making the same mistakes that she did. She cares too much. She loves you too much. So today, think of all the stuff your mom has done for you through the years and let her know how much you love her for it. She gave up her life for you, the least you can do is let her know how much that means! I love you so much mom, for everything you have taught me and everything you will teach me in the future!

Saturday, May 8, 2010


I wrote this almost a year ago but I love it, so here ya go:

Gorgeous, a powerful word that means splendid or sumptuous in appearance by definition. But what is its true meaning? Is Paris Hilton gorgeous in the same way that your wife is? The answer to that should be no if you have any sense at all. True elegant beauty is something more that just an appearance. It is much more than aesthetics. It is much more than wearing the right clothes, jewelry, makeup, or shoes. Being gorgeous is making a man’s heart stop even when you aren’t trying to look good. Gorgeous is wearing your sweatshirt and old jeans and STILL sending that tingle up a guy’s spine. Gorgeous is being sick and the boy still not being to take his eyes off of you. Gorgeous is NOT pretty. Gorgeous comes from the heart. A girl that is truly beautiful would love you whether you wore Polo, loved Captain Kirk, ate Boo Berry for breakfast, programmed computers, owned a beach house, were short, or even if you weren’t attractive. That girl is gorgeous because you know that she loves YOU, not who you want to portray yourself as or what you seem to be, she loves you because you are you. And to go with that she will only be herself because that’s why you should love her. That’s America’s problem, ourselves. We don’t want to be us, we want to be JT or Will Smith or Kobe Bryant. We don’t want to be John Doe or Mr. E we want to be what everyone loves. When all we are doing is hiding from the one that is there to truly love us. I am 19 years old and I LOVE Batman, I own every episode of Seinfeld and Rob & Big, have bear house shoes, play video games, obsess over movies, hate reading, love love, love Polo, miss Arnold, speak scoobineese, could lose some weight, attempt to be fashionable, fall in love way too quickly, am extremely cheesy, hate my competitors, make fun of people constantly, and try to be a writer and a poet and I have some of the most GORGEOUS friends in the world. I may be childish and immature but still I know women that are mature enough to love me for me and nothing else. Right now they are my best friends but maybe, just maybe someday we can be a bit closer than that. Maybe I can share love with a woman like that and we can obsess over each other and go to Six Flags and be immature and love each other because we are who we are. Don’t look to fit love, because you can’t, love fits you. Once you learn that you will become gorgeous, just like you always dreamed of.

Friday, May 7, 2010

The empty room

You walk into your room at your house and look around. What do you see? You have your bed, your dresser, closet, maybe a few pictures or paintings on the wall, a nightstand, a rug, TV, possibly a chair. Now imagine all of that was gone, just totally gone, and your room was painted gray with a concrete floor. It's still a room right? In fact, it's still your room even. So why would a person be any different? If we were all just gray and didn't have our personality or race on the outside, would anyone judge us by how we looked? If all of our personality was inside of us how would we be treated? Much differently. Because I see the guy on the side of the road with his hair dyed black, wearing all black with a chain around his neck and make-up on and I think "wow that guy has problems." But in reality, that guy is just like me. Yea he has problems, but he also has incredible ideas and dreams and aspirations. We are too quick to jump to conclusions about people just from what we observe on the outside. The true value that a person has will never be shown on the outside, it comes from within. So girls, don't show me your whole body when you go to class in your short shorts and skin tight tank. Because then there's no way I'll be focused on you and your personality. Not a chance. But the challenge, to myself and to everyone, is to keep your mind open to people and their ideas and don't throw them out just because of the way they look. Whether it be race, style, height, weight, sex, just let it be and open your mind to the ideas that the person has inside!